Ouch.

Stomach. Feels like peroxide on an open wound. Ouch. That is all. :(

Life decision

So...life decision made...

I want to become a doctor or a Physician Assistant. Good talk. :)

You have your good days...and then...

You know how you have your good days, and you have your bad days...well, I can't say today was either one.
I spent most of today trying to curb my stomach pains. Trying to soothe them with whatever weapons I could throw at them. I have tried Tums, my daily Nexium, Saltines, I ate a protein filled dinner...I have been eating ice. I am just sick and tired of feeling like this. My mind knows that I want to be in a good mood, but my body keeps telling me that I am not. I just want this to be over, and for both of them to agree with each other for once. On the flip side, I got to spend a peaceful fourth with a bunch of my friends. But I do miss the fireworks I would have seen at the Salem Fireman's Carnival...it's been years since I have missed them...2007, I think.....Anyway, I wish everyone a happy and safe fourth of July and I will chat later! :)

Exhausting myself...

This is a quick one...

I am in this really bad habit of masochistic behavior right now. I won't stop working until I have completely exhausted myself. I feel as though, if I have some strength left, there is something that I have left undone somewhere, something that I have left unfinished. But in real life, there isn't, and that's why it's a bad behavior, and it's going to get me in trouble...it has already started to. My body hates me. My mind wanders...I have to learn how to pace myself. PACE YOURSELF MAUREEN. Rant over. Good night. Thank GOD.